Progressing well but aargh other people!!!
Happy Tuesday all! My husband and I were lucky enough to get given a voucher for a gorgeous hotel we love in the New Forest. Currently drinking coffee, and chillaxing! This is our third visit here, and the difference in me between visits is worth a post! The first time I was drinking, we spent the afternoon drinking, and remember my husband being annoyed that I ordered yet another glass of wine to bring back to the room?! The second time was about a year ago, and I was two or three months into 5 months of sobriety. I had called to find out what AF drinks they offered and upon discovering not much brought a six pack of Becks Blue with me. I was very conscious about not drinking and feeling hard done by. This time OMG, I was hugely looking forward to it, the time together, the food, the peace and not even a thought of drink. Turns out they serve Seedlip here, so had a lovely AF cocktail and two bottles of fizzy water. The no booze just didn't even feature - progress indeed!!
So hugely thrilled to have got to this point, but am seriously struggling with and getting increasingly frustrated by other people! Having recently hit 6 months sober, I really thought a sizeable pat on the back from close friends would be forthcoming but not! The select few friends I have been 'mostly' open with still talk about drinking a lot, one even recently talked of a friend from uni who was back to being fun again as she had started drinking after a period of abstinence!
I have been trying to imagine how I would react if I was still drinking and a friend opened up to me about their drinking problem and subsequently stopped, and whether I would be forthcoming with praise. I would like to think I would, but maybe not as it would highlight my own issues?? Now I am stronger, I think perhaps this is the time to 'come clean' to a few more people. It's a tricky call to make. The issue is two fold, do I really want everyone to know the true extent, or would I rather keep this private but remain irritated by the lack of support? I also desperately don't want my friends to feel that they have to watch what they say or drink around me. I have no idea whether honesty is the best policy???
So hugely thrilled to have got to this point, but am seriously struggling with and getting increasingly frustrated by other people! Having recently hit 6 months sober, I really thought a sizeable pat on the back from close friends would be forthcoming but not! The select few friends I have been 'mostly' open with still talk about drinking a lot, one even recently talked of a friend from uni who was back to being fun again as she had started drinking after a period of abstinence!
I have been trying to imagine how I would react if I was still drinking and a friend opened up to me about their drinking problem and subsequently stopped, and whether I would be forthcoming with praise. I would like to think I would, but maybe not as it would highlight my own issues?? Now I am stronger, I think perhaps this is the time to 'come clean' to a few more people. It's a tricky call to make. The issue is two fold, do I really want everyone to know the true extent, or would I rather keep this private but remain irritated by the lack of support? I also desperately don't want my friends to feel that they have to watch what they say or drink around me. I have no idea whether honesty is the best policy???
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